Hi Jim, You tell a lot of things.
I am sorry for your daughter, I present you my condolences.
About FQXi , I have known them since the begining and they make a good job, they have members of course and they are all different thinkers, professional mainly and I like several thinkers of FQXi , like penrose, richard gil who is a friend on facebook, rovelli ....I believe that FQXi is just about the essays , they don t favorise the members but the winners were logic for me. I have learnt so much on this platform and I have improved a lot my theory, I believe that a theory is never finished in fact, it is this improvement the most important at my humble opinion and the fact to try to prove our assumtions.
I know that I must publish and that my theory has a different general philosophy than these strings wich are an institution like the GR and photons like primary essence. Personally I think that they turn in round in this philosophical prison , the SM does not seem to be from this GR and the fields. We know too that our community is maybe one of the most vanitious on this earth lol , we have difficulties to change a line of reasoning and to accept the other different ideas. We have too this competition like parameter instead of this cooperation. But it is like this.
The perimeter institute seems too a good foundation , you have chance to live in canada it is a wonderful country, me I have immigrated in finland , it is wonderful too with 86 percent of forests, I live in a farm in the forest with my girlfriend.
I like you Jim and it is always cool to discuss with you, take care, friendly