Steve, you wrote in Ronald Bennett's forum, to which I offered to reply here:
"Indeed Tom , but apparently a lot of scientists do not really love the critics. Tom, could you help me to be accepted in an university in USA? I d like have my doctorate in physics. I could imrpove my works.I d like also learn engeniering and computing. I do not know all you know Tom, I have never said that I knew all.I am arrogant indeed but you know I am just a young searcher wanting to be recognized for his researchs and wanting to learn more in the good universities with the good mentors and professors. I have found an improtant thing Tom, you know it, I d like learn more and I d like test my models and inventions with good partners. Belgium is frustrating. Ihave already had a business angel from Paris, I must admit that I am a little parano.
I d like find the good university. I have always dreamed to learn in an american university.Like I have already explained, I was in geology at the FNDP of Namur Belgium. But I have had neurological probelms.It was difficult you know after.I have learned by myself. I have always this dream you know.
Regards "
LOL! I'm not an academic, Steve. I couldn't get you into Barber College. I do know something about neurological deficiency, however, having only fairly recently surmised that my lifelong dyslexia probably originates from an auto accident between ages 3 and 4. A bad one -- infant brother killed, mother and stepfather seriously injured -- though it appeared that I was the lucky one, having only been thrown from the vehicle, knocked unconscious and suffered a wound to the back of the head that was closed with a few stitches. I have learned that it coincides with the part of the brain that controls language skills.
I went through a childhood of isolation, with difficulties in speech, reading and comprehension. I tried to compensate by reading material over and over -- sometimes I would take away an entirely different meaning from one reading to the next (very frustrating). I had devoured two sets of encyclopedias by age 11 or so. About the same time, I taught myself algebra from the radio circuit design books my father had left behind (he was a radio technician who died when I was 2). That was a mistake -- I only managed to pass second year algebra in school with a promise to my teacher that I wouldn't pursue any higher mathematics. While I did manage to be admitted to college, I couldn't keep up well enough to keep my student deferment and avoid being drafted into the military (I ended up volunteering for the U.S.Navy) to serve in Vietnam. I withdrew into myself to do mathematics then and ever since, earning a living any other way that I could (and I haven't done badly, in fact, for myself and my family). My only ambition, by force of circumstance more than conscious choice, is knowledge for its own sake.
Today -- and this is only in my late years -- it is a feeling of great accomplishment and triumph to even participate in a forum such as this, and be able to hold my own. I don't just know what I'm talking about -- I know *how* I know, because I have of necessity studied it many more times and more intensely than most, closing gaps of understanding through many many repeated iterations of the same material. Even I would find that tedious, if I didn't have to do it.
Everyone has their own life to live and their ways of learning, and I don't consider mine any better or worse than anyone else's. All I can say to you is that if you wish a life in science -- then live it. Don't talk about it, don't expect anyone to give you a formal introduction to it, don't invest a lot of confidence in people or institutions to give you help. If it means enough to you, you'll find a way. Write papers, prove theorems, apply for conferences (most have scholarships for those without means, whose abstract or paper passes peer review).
I don't consider myself "self taught." Though one can be trained to behave in a certain way, no one is ever taught anything. Learning can only be acquired by meaningful study and exchanges with other scholars in the field, and this is the case whether one has much formal education, or none at all. Scholars aren't scholars because they earned a Ph.D. Scholars are scholars because they practice scholarship.
Take care. Here's hoping that you find the will to pursue your goals no matter what.
Tom