Dear Jose,
thank you so much for your reply and for elucidating your points of view.
I think there is a creator behind all this, but I also think that he is in a certain sense not omnipotent. Firstly, he seem to have granted his creatures some free will (what contains the possibility to decide against choosing some good instead of some bad things) and does only intervene when its creatures are willing. Secondly I do not assume that this creator has the abilities to annihilate himself - or at least his eternal network of values is such that he will never do this.
Besides those points, I think this creator is really some eternal being with some personal characteristics, although not in the sense of a human person (as is often reported in near-death experiences). I am surprised that a you do not exclude such a creator as a possibility.
The crucial point to explain why there is so much suffering and falseness in the world may come from the fact that we are separated from this creator by some own free-will decision in the past. Surely, this past then must be before we have been born into this world.
As I outlined in my essay, in the realm of this creator, one part of antivalence has vanished - or more precise, does not exist yet. This part of some binary opposites is regularily the bad part, darkness, chaos, falseness, delusion, hate etc. By separating from the eternal principles of this creator, these negative opposites are *created* in the first place - since they reflect what happens when one does negate the realm of fundamental truth. The more a creature does negate this realm, the more negativity will be created.
I am perfectly aware of the implications of what I write here. Either the separation I spoke of was due to a free-will decision of some creatures of God to experience how it is if God does not exist (to experience what could lie outside the realms of God, so to speak) - or this separation is the result of a real opposition to God's realm, means the fall of mankind by a severe delusion. A delusion that says that God cannot be the most potent principle existent and that his creatures (part of them) begun to search for some power within themselves that should transcend the power of the creator.
In light of all this, the 'meaning' of our existence is to find the way back to this creator - or to reside further in opposition and spiral down into more and more negativity. This may be a depressing picture for you, but I simply must confess that it is at least consistent with all I see in the world, in the past as well as in the present. We both are relatively blessed, since I assume we aren't attacked too hard by the negative aspects of life. But this should not delude me to think that life is a kind of funny game and I deserved to be on the sunny side of life. I think nothing could be further away from the truth, but most people think so - and at the same time increase negativity in the world. Just look at the powers of money and corruption. Most of those people think they are of esteemed value for the world, maybe they also think they deserve their power, influence and money on the basis of some karma or something like this. But they simply delude themselves and / or God deludes them just as it is written in the bible cause of their wicked hearts.
If I had to resume what leads people to commit bad things and at the same time think that they do harmless, or even good things, is that people want to be like God and cannot accept their human conditions, a delusion that in psychology is called 'narcissm'. Just as Narciss they constantly see only themselves - reflected from every surface. Narcissm is the illness of humankind and just like in the story of Dorian Gray, its ugly face becomes more and more apparent in the world, especially by people who invent philosophies that try to divide mankind in more or less 'developed' spiritual or otherlike superior / inferior beings. And there is no antidote against this, since this is the condition of mankind after the split from God's realms. The only antidote is to realized that mankind cannot deliver itself. But this will not happen for mankind as a whole, but can only be achieved by the single individuum.
Well, now you have a pretty precise picture of what I assume to be really fundamental as a thinking and conscious being. Another annotation: by studying tons of cases of near-death experiences, one can realize that God reveals himself only if the subject allows this by its free will. And even this is no guarantee that a kind of revelation must occur. Revelations, if searched for seriously and with an open heart, may also come in subtle forms, so that the individual can assimilate them step by step. There is no real borderline between the realm of God and the physical realm, but it is a one-way connection, since people cannot reach over to this realm of God, but God can vice versa. After this world has ended, there may be not even exist anymore this one-way connection, since then for some people the True-part of antivalence vanishes and only the accumulated negativity of all histories remains true, but the accumulated positivity vanishes totally. This is also a result of near-death experiences that encountered the dark side of some life after death. If one sticks to negativity, then negativity becomes a totality. What do I mean by negativity? First of all, denying the realm of God, which created conscious beings in the first place. Secondly, denying that one cannot be like God, but is just a creature of a creator. Thirdly, trying to take the place of God by deluding other people by tricks and lies so that they serve oneself whenever it pleases.
So, now enough, this is not a theological seminar. But nonetheless, many will consider it as philosophy, so its appropriate to bring it up here and freely write it down, since the whole contest's question is one of philosophy rather than of science. And additionally, we as human beings or even as scientists cannot deny that we sometimes have religious thoughts and questions.
Hope you can extract something meaningfull out of my considerations!
Stefan Weckbach