Hi Lorraine,
thanks for your reply and your honest words. I enjoy that kind of honest conversation very much.
As you maybe know I do not like to read plain assertions without any justification of why someone who claims something does claim it and without writing her/his lines of reasoning about how they arrived at all at their conclusions. Otherwise we could simply wrote a one-liner with an assumption or a claim and that would be it.
Therefore, because it was me who introduced the issue of God and the issue of Christianity, I like to tell you and the reader a bit more about how I see the several issues I mentioned so far. Not because I want to convert anyone to Christianity, but simply because my mentioning of it can cause irritations about how and why I arrived at it and how it could relate to science.
As you already know, I believe that we are responsible for our actions as well as our thoughts, since actions - at least actions with certain consequences - follow from thoughts.
Your are honest in your replies, what I see in that you confess that we really can't say with certainty why the world is like it is and whether or not our detectable universe with all that is in it once was in a state of non-separation from a higher "thing". And you are intelligent enough to not advertise what you believe as facts, but instead label it as thoughts, as a world view. I appreciate this honesty.
For me, if the world wouldn't really be a kind of remnant of what once had been a much better, non-separated state within a higher intelligence (God), then I think I had to consider, at the end of the day, everything what happened and happens within this mysterious totality as well as the existence of that totality itself must be totally senseless and meaningless. That totality may be stable and it may work perfectly, but for no reasons and hence, the fact that it works perfectly and is stable is meaningless when considered from the point of view that we all have to die at some not so far away point in time, many of us after having suffered severe pain and injustice.
Now, I think that I am not alone with this kind of feeling. To the contrary, almost every human being at least once or twice in its lifetime is faced with that kind of feeling. And if one then further thinks about all of it (and has the time to do so), it may get much worse. So I think that for example the people who committed 9/11 where people that thought Islam solves that existential problem for them. Anyway, I think this was not all what lead to 9/11. There also must have been a severe kind of subliminal aggression against how the world and the people in it are have been present in these persons (compared to how they would like it to be) to commit the actions they did.
In fact, I think a part of all human-made tragedy can be ascribed to the fact that the people who cause these kind of tragedy haven't coped with living in an assumed-to-be meaningless world. Another version of that is the "devil-may-care" attitude of people. Of course, all these tragedy raises severe pain and questions for the victims of these human-made tragedy (inclusive murdering and other bad things) about the meaning and appreciation of their existences and those of their loved ones. In fact, there are things that happen to people about one can say with confidence that these people didn't deserve them in any way - be it man-made tragedy or natural, contingent desaster.
Hence, naturally the question arises of how all of this can be reconciled with the idea of God in Christianity that is supposed to be good and loving. As a first answer, in my opinion this should not depend on whether God considers (some) human beings as special chosen ones (maybe amongst other created beings, aliens etc.). If you have more than one child, I think most of us would love each and every one of them AS IF it would be the only child. And I think that must be also true for God's view. I do not know whether or not God also created other lifeforms at other locations than earth.
Nonetheless all of this does not answer why there are so much bad and painful things in OUR world and how one can reconcile that fact with the idea of such a God.
I would suspect that this has something to do with free will. If one indeed assumes that there has been a state of non-separation from a good an loving God, then there must be a reason why that isn't any more so.
If one accepts free will to be existent, it then could also have existed for every single living entity during that state of non-separation from God. The only way I can reasonably imagine how our world with its huge amounts of bad and painful things in it came about is to assume that certain beings equipped with a soul and free will within that non-separated state from God asked themselves "how would it be like to be separated from God?". This then would be a counterfactual question at this point of affairs.
That question then is equivalent to asking "How would things be when there would be no God?".
Obviously, in our world we live, we can see how it is to be separated from God and how it would be when there would be no God.
Furthermore I think it is important to notice that the assumptions I made so far and further will make for explaining evil, pain and senselessness in this world should not be interpreted as a kind of funny game these souls started to play. Because in my opinion this would not be a game (for example like hide and seek), but rather in many individual cases unfortunately a very real bad choice. This implies that nonetheless, God allowed its beings to make choices, even the choice of separating oneself from God and I have to accept this free will in the same way that I had to accept free will when there indeed would be no such God existent.
Furthermore I have to accept that choices have consequences.
Several posts above you wrote that
"Nothing, no afterlife, no God, can compensate for tragedy and wrongdoing".
Yes, as beautiful as this world may be (and is), I agree with that. But if you believe in an afterlife and at least in parts of the bible, then God will dry the tears of those who had to live through severe pain, despair and injustice. Afterlife then means the realm where all of that tragedy began in the first place. I believe that this realm really exists, since in our world there are many different non-common sense phenomena that hint in exactly that direction. But here is not the place to discuss them.
What about evil?
According to what I wrote so far, evil at least is the absence of God, the separation, its at least the absence of a certain amount of love and goodwill events. I do not exclude that there are some real evil entities existent that made its way also into our known world. But I do not want to focus to much on that kind of evil here. Fact is that some people commit crimes and all kinds of other things for the exclusive reason of torturing other people because the former really like torturing others.
My explanation scheme does also not exclude the possibility that some entities that decided to experience what is is like to be separated from God will not find their ways back to non-separation with God. At least not in the next couple of aeons, since I think (not know!) that people who lived a life of passion for evil which cannot be any more compensated for themselves (unless these people deeply pray for forgiveness and deeply ask their victims for forgiveness) and others cannot enter any kind of heaven again due to free will: they will experience what they freely decided to experience, namely
what it is like to be separated from God.
And honestly I think this will be a rather hellish experience.
Therefore I do not think that we are pawns in the game of a higher being, as you wrote in a reply somewhere above. Rather I would say what anyway is obvious in this world, namely that some people blame their bad decisions on God, thereby using God as a pawn in their responsibility games. Surely, with that I do not refer to those people that suffer(ed) from desaster and tragedy they themselves have neither caused nor wished to happen to them. These cases are clearly existent.
And clearly, it is really difficult to explain all that kind of suffering in front of the background-assumption of an existing God. At least I have no other explanation for this suffering than what I presented here. In the revelation of John - if one takes it seriously - God promised to dry at least all the tears of those that suffered (horrible) injustice.
Nonetheless, please notice that I do not judge nor know who will make it into heaven and not (except for the cases I above mentioned I do judge), since I know that I really do not know everything. I think the answer to that last question is really a matter between God and every person personally, in the sense that it matters what one has done or/and hasn't done during one's lifetime and with which motivations and intentions that came about and/or did not came about. But again, this is only my subjective explanation since I do not know everything. I am neither in the position to finally judge all people nor to finally know everything. And I think each and everyone of us is also not in that position.